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i hate school so much i cant even handle it any more! these stupid deadlines every one sets at the same time. i feel like i never have time to do anything for myself or what i want to do because i'm going off everything and everyone else's schedule. i just want weekend were i can go out with my fiance and not have to worry about something due at midnight, like a blog. i feel like i have been constantly stressed for the past two months and i don't think tanner can handle it any more. i took only twelve credits so i would have time to plan my wedding but this feels like the hardest semester ever at BYU. i feel so bad for tanner because he is the one who has to deal with my nervous breakdowns every week, or so it seems to be every week. i need to learn how to set my priorities. i have been setting school as my top priority and that is so wrong. planning my wedding hasn't even been fun because it gets in the way of my school work which is so sad because i have been so excited to plan my wedding ever since i was a little kid. i need to forget about doing everything perfect and forget about caring what other people think, and just decide to be happy and grateful because life is what you make it. i need to have more faith in the Lord because as long as i prioritize the gospel he will take care of the rest and everything will just fall into place.